Today My Life Begins

Life in a movie

Have you ever watched Hindi movies where the flashbacks of an ex-lover or someone dead comes up so real that the person thinking about them could actually touch them?

Mohabbatein is one such movie. I have no idea how SRK could actually dance with Aishwarya so realistically when she was actually dead throughout the movie. How I wish it's the same for us, mere mortals out here living our lives outside the movie world. How nice...

Sometimes I become this looney girl who speaks to herself in her car. While driving to and fro work most of the time. And who am I talking to? Sathyan, of course. Sometimes, when something interesting or exciting happens, the first person that I wish I could share is with him. It makes me so mad that with all the advances we have in our world today, no one actually tried to figure out how to connect "wireless"-ly to the other world. It would have made it easier for me to maintain my long-distance relationship with Sathyan. :)

I really hope Sathyan and Steve Jobs are doing something about it, now that both of them are in heaven!

I miss him all the time and once in a while a memory gushes in and takes over my brain and common sense. I even thought of cloning him but somehow no amount of DNA samples that I have in store is enough for the "experts" to bring him back alive - even then it would have been too risky; the outcome could be disastrous, so I was told!

Why didn't God create another copy of him? Someone who looks like him and has all his attributes and surprisingly single. Like how it happened in Kaho Na Pyaar Hai.How come all these happens in movies alone?

Why God, why didn't you make a backup copy of my husband? 

In case you did, where is he? Tell me, tell me! :P

I've learned by Andy Rooney

I've learned that no matter how serious your life requires you to be, everyone needs a friend to act goofy with.

I've learned that no one is perfect until you fall in love with them.

 I've learned that opportunities are never lost, someone will take the ones you miss.

I've learned that love, not time, heals all wounds.

The Due Date

As I stepped into 2011, my heart was filled with hope. My brain was filled with wisdom. My life was filled with revelations.

I had planned so many things for this year, but as I go through each and every one of it, I feel nothing but sad. Disappointed in fact. Deeply depressed.

Alright, I was exaggerating :P

But that does not mean the feeling that 'I have not achieved anything big this year" is not there. As the time to draw curtain for this year gets closer, the feeling gets even more intense. 

I have not achieved anything big, but I certainly have lost something huge. Somehow, it's like drowning in a deep, choppy sea but miraculously being saved by someone who still wants you to be around. Grief after the death of a loved one is probably the hardest feeling one has to overcome and I am definitely lucky that I made through the hardest part. Well that's what I thought!

Fate has a funny way of meddling with my life. Trouble seems to find me somehow, no matter what I do to avoid being sucked into the poison well. Ah yes, twists and turns are part of anyone's life and so far I have been through the worst, so let's see what else could possibly be harder! :))

On trusts

Last week, I had the privilege to attend a 2-day training on dynamic work habits which is basically about the habits of highly effective people. 

My favorite take away is the quote mentioned by the trainer:

"Trust has to be earned."

One of the most fragile aspect of being human is our ability to trust. A broken trust is probably the hardest substance in the world that you can try to patch back, but it will never be the same - again. There are few things that happened these past few days that made me realize how true this is.

One of the things I value most in my relationship with anyone is privacy and personal integrity. I highly value these basic human rights because that's what we are - we're human. We have the right to have our own privacy. And when we selectively confer someone with some information that is highly private for us - we trust this person to keep it that way. But what happens when someone breaches this trust and exploits the privacy? Isn't it a way to lose one's integrity? Where are your moral values as a civilized human?

See how easy it is to spot someone not worthy of your time?

For me, even sharing of my phone screen lock password with anyone is highly offensive - I'm hard-coded that way. That's what my job is about. Every day I work with thousands of records and data that has millions of customer information. Often I've came across cases where bank-related information were entered in incorrect fields which makes it very readable (it's purely human error). But I was trained to be a person with the highest form of integrity, so it is my responsibility to safeguard these information (I often mask out sensitive data before it reaches the wrong hands). See how crucial this attribute is? 

What if you sent your credit card information to a friend (to buy something for you) and another person reads his/her email (probably through a saved/shared password) - imagine if it was read by someone who makes unethical use of your private information? Just imagine the consequences!

Would you trust that person again?

I was out shopping with Puspa yesterday at Parkson. The salesgirl that we were dealing with took the items Puspa bought to the nearest cashier for her and it just so happens to be the queue was very long! Leaving Puspa queuing up at the cashier counter (typically Malaysian you see, we don't want to lose either way), the salesgirl and I went to check whether the opposite cashier (which was partially hidden) is open. The salesgirl gave a quick look and said to me it's closed. I was sure it's not.

So I walked further towards the cashier counter and saw a small girl sitting there, waiting for customers to come! There were none! I verified with the cashier girl whether the counter is open and she said yes! So lesson learned?

Trust is good but verify is better. :)

Catchy tunes

Ever had one of those moments where the song just does not want to leave your brain? It just sits there, playing and rewinding, then playing again. It seems like the first thing that comes to your mind when you wake up is not what day it is, but why-is-this-song-still-playing-in-my-head realization?

I had such instances lately, and not surprisingly, my CD player in the car loops the same song when I go to work - that's 45 minutes of the same song playing over and over again! Can someone enlighten me why such phenomenon (if that's the right word for it) occurs to human alone?

The current song that is stuck in my head: Chammak Challo! And there are so many versions of it! I wonder who is the choreographer for its video.