On priority

One of the best things that happened to me is being on someone else's priority list...and that too at number one spot.

It's a feeling that tells you there is someone who will always stop doing whatever they were doing and concentrate on you or your requests. Isn't it nice?

My that someone is now gone. And ever since he left, I always feel that I'm being neglected by everyone else. I'm saying this based on things that has been happening for the past few days.

I'm definitely not screaming for any attention, or in other words, anyone's attention. But at least, thinking everything will be alright or, "she's big enough to take care of herself" thoughts sometimes may not be true.

Sometimes it's nice to know that there is someone who wants to make you coffee without being asked. Someone who buys you stuff for no reason. Someone who thinks you're the world for them. And you know you would do the same for them.

What Sathyan and I shared was a relationship deeper than marriage. It's very hard to explain how we enjoyed each other's company more than anything else. I miss him so much. Reality is starting to smack on my face with the fact that there is no one quite like him. I've came across many people in my life. But no one can ever put me in their number one spot like he did.

At times like this, I sit and wonder the whys of life... Why does it have to be him? Why us of all the couples out there? Why me? Whys of no answers...

I eat alone. I go shopping alone. I watch movies alone. I look at the stars alone. It's kinda sad to know that people actually feel sorry for me. Is that why so many people are inviting me to their house for Diwali this year despite knowing the fact I won't come? I wish I know...

Being neglected and forgotten is the worse thing that I have to go through now. I think it's better to be ignored by a stranger than someone you know. Isn't it?

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An app for everything

Today I found an amazing mobile application from Citrix. Citrix Client Receiver for Android. I call it amazing because with this nifty technology my work is now mobile!

I am now able to access almost everything I need to do my work using my phone. I can even remote into and reboot a server from my phone! I can run database queries, approve change tickets, run through my incidents and the list goes on. It's really cool.

Ok, here comes the best part. This application is not limited to Android alone. Those who has Blackberry, Windows, or even iPhone/iPad can use this and turn their mobiles for business use. I find it very useful, because now I don't have to carry my notebook around with me when I'm on-call. I can take care of everything from my phone alone. :)

Here's a picture of a remote server on my phone using Citrix Receiver. It is really awesome.

Now, I have all the reasons I need to get a tablet...soon!

It's Friday! I made it alive!

Work has been tight and Friday came today as a breather. Finally I had no meetings (had one but got cancelled) and I was not on-call. Of course I had lots of things to follow up and resolve, but today seemed much brighter than any other day.

I thought finally I could have a "free" Saturday tomorrow, but nope, that's not the case then! I have to go for work on Saturday and Sunday. I've been working for every single weekend for the past three weekends. On a brighter side, I'm glad I have my work to keep me occupied. It seems like a better thing to do than sit at home and look at the blank walls and... look at another wall. Haha...

Since it was Friday, Puspa and I decided to make it a day to ...erm.. celebrate... because...ermm... it's finally Friday, of course! So what did we do? We headed to Secret Recipe and bought a slice of cake each. Yummy!

Android Invasion!

Whenever I open some video on Android device review, I always see a really cute Android toy. Making me want it so much. Using Google, I found out there is an official distributor in Malaysia who accepts online orders!

Cool, huh?

I placed my order for two. One is the standard edition - the good 'ol green Android. The other one was an individual box from Android mini collectibles series 2 - which was kind of a mystery buy because every box looks the same so the sellers could not choose (hence I could not choose either when placing the order). So what did I get out of the 16 designs available? The Iceberg Android! Cool has a new meaning now, haha!

Pictures below. Hopefully I'll have more spare time this weekend to take more shots of my droids.

Shoot in RAW

"Always try to shoot in RAW".

Sathyan always tells me RAW is the best format to shoot, because you have the much needed freedom to control the exposure and other stuff when you open it in PC.

For those using Nikon imaging systems (like yours truly), this means NEF files. You can always use ViewNX to view these files but more often what I really want is to preview the NEF file before opening it in Photoshop (or any other photo editing software).

Today I found out there is actually a codec from Nikon that allows a thumbnail preview of the raw file in the explorer (I'm using Windows 7). It makes NEF files almost as easy as working with JPEG, which makes the word RAW less daunting now, doesn't it? :)

The codec can be downloaded from here. Happy previewing!

Quote for the day

"Don't cry because it's over, smile because it happened."
-- Dr. Seuss

Another Lesson Learned

It was meant to be a happy meal... it was just a simple, Happy Meal...

Iced Milo that came with it was too little for me so I ordered one more. The cashier asked medium? I said, No, LARGE!

I came back home on Sunday night with bloated stomach. There was this urge to vomit everything, but I resisted because I was too tired and sleepy you see. And what happened the next day? Diarrhea 7 times, and I vomited probably 5 or 6 times through out the day. I did manage to drag myself to work but I couldn't even stand properly. Let alone using my brain. Stomach ache seemed more significant than any server that was down.

Nirmala took me to the nearest clinic and the doctor said it was food poisoning... my long lost enemy from 2005. I was given medical leave for 2 days and was asked to rest at home.

I feel slightly better today and I hope I can get back to work tomorrow morning. I better be because I'm on-call tomorrow. 

So lesson learned:

1) Never ever buy milk-based drinks from any vending machine. Because you'll never be able to find out when it expires.

2) Avoid frozen patties at all times. Which means, no more fast food burgers or nuggets for me. Ever. DOT.

It's raining

And I'm yearning for a good cup of coffee and a good book to read.

But instead, here I am, in front of my computer... dialed in to a conference call listening to an endless conversation on how things are breaking down and being fixed. For two days this is what I've been up to.

I keep looking at my books and wonder, when can I touch you again, O My Love?

I've done reading Water for Elephants (which was way awesome than the movie itself) and now looking for an equally good book to purchase. Any suggestions, drop me an email.

If this is your first visit to my blog...

...then, you'll find this post useful!

Welcome to my brand new blog! Well, the template, fonts and the look is still the same, but this is a new ME from now onwards.

I've decided to let go of my past by taking my previous blog off the Google radar. All these are part of my efforts to move on to a new life. The previous blog (2004-2011) is now resting in peace (well, accessible to me only).

This decision is not a move to forget what I've lost. It's a move to regain what I will lose if I don't move on. It took me an incomparable amount of strength and work to regain my self-confidence and I want to continue that by starting a new life, sharing it in my new blog. What has passed, is past and it shall remain as a bubble that is always there in my thoughts.

So as a tradition, my first post is always about me. So here it goes (which I wrote in 2004 by the way):

Things you should know about me:

1. I'm NOT looking for love. Don't send IM messages to me or email me thinking that I would be interested in developing a relationship with you. It'll never work, no matter how hard you try.


2. I'm NOT available as a free source to develop your website or develop some system for you (which in turn, you intend to sell for profit).


3. I'm NOT interested in any online business scheme you wish to offer to me. I'm happy with my job.


4. I DON'T offer sympathy to strangers who come out from nowhere in IMs or emails.


5. I like people who knows how to be happy -- no matter how hard their life could be.


6. DON'T tell me I look like someone you know (your ex-girlfriend, your mom, your sis, etc) or behave like one. I'm unique and I'm always different.


7. I DON'T go out with people I don't know. So don't ask me out.


8. I'm a Malaysian.


9. If you email me, DO let me know your blog/webpage URL (if you have one). I would love to visit them.


10. I'm single or not, you DON'T have to know.

Hey, I'm not chasing you away. :) I'm a nice person actually. I just want good friends. So the list above filters it. :D

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No way to comment? Well, great blogs don't need comments. Or so I would like to assume and believe. You need feedback when you feel your posts are not complete enough. This blog is about me, so anything and everything about me is complete - as far as I know and concerned enough to know (I should know best, anyhow).

However, if you still want to tell me something, somehow, so badly, and it's making you to lose sleep - email me. I check my emails *almost* everyday but please do not expect any replies. I am very selective when it comes to replying emails.

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Everything posted here remains here. Meaning to say, if you happen to meet me somewhere outside - make my day and stop talking about my blog to me. I wrote each and every word published here, what makes you think I won't remember any of it? If I want to discuss about it I would have given link to comment about it. Doesn't that makes sense now?