Every end has a beginning

That's the tag that we use to console ourselves, injecting our souls with the hope of getting something different - better or worse doesn't matter, just something different - to carry on with our lives. 

We hope to see changes, hope to gain something or lose something, hope to create something or destroy something. 

As the new year approaches, I am filled with mixed feelings. But I am choosing to not bother about all the things that is not going to help me move forward. I cannot do anything to change people, but I can do something to change myself. 

So this new year, I want to start a new life.  People often say that we often don't know what we had until we lost it. But for me, I didn't know what I have been losing until I found it.

I am glad I've found a diamond that I once thought I will never find again.

The next chapter

It took me some time to digest the things that swirled around me this past few weeks.

First was my resignation from my job. As much as I loved what I was doing, I always felt there is room for me to get something better. Although I did not actively seek out for a new opportunity, one came smacking on my face. 

A good one too.

After contemplating and weighing everything under the sun, I decided to let go my comfort zone and plunge into unknown territory. It was the same feeling I had when I lost Sathyan - learning to let go and be brave enough to explore new environment. It wasn't easy, and I cannot say things will be better, but surely, I will get there. Part of the learning and growing up process, eh? :)

I tendered my resignation within 2 weeks after my promotion. Left a week later. I felt both good and sad. Good because I know I have made a decision that will improve my life, bring some vital changes that I have been looking forward (better working hours mainly) but sad because I have to be away from things that I am familiar with - my friends, family and home. Also from a job that I did so well in. But I do know, my stress level were going up and honestly, I was hoping some miracle would happen and get me a new job.

I got it :P

So here I am, having a cup of coffee, taking a step back, giving myself a short break, and looking forward for a new beginning in few days time.

On being selfish

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