As I stepped into 2011, my heart was filled with hope. My brain was filled with wisdom. My life was filled with revelations.
I had planned so many things for this year, but as I go through each and every one of it, I feel nothing but sad. Disappointed in fact. Deeply depressed.
Alright, I was exaggerating :P
But that does not mean the feeling that 'I have not achieved anything big this year" is not there. As the time to draw curtain for this year gets closer, the feeling gets even more intense.
I have not achieved anything big, but I certainly have lost something huge. Somehow, it's like drowning in a deep, choppy sea but miraculously being saved by someone who still wants you to be around. Grief after the death of a loved one is probably the hardest feeling one has to overcome and I am definitely lucky that I made through the hardest part. Well that's what I thought!
Fate has a funny way of meddling with my life. Trouble seems to find me somehow, no matter what I do to avoid being sucked into the poison well. Ah yes, twists and turns are part of anyone's life and so far I have been through the worst, so let's see what else could possibly be harder! :))
